Yep, going to be a weirdo here and say I'm so grateful to be unemployed. It is giving me time I wouldn't take for myself when I had a job. Time for the kids, friends, family and myself. Now don't get all crazy thinking I'm so comfortable that I'm going to stay this way. Being unemployed isn't conducive to my lifestyle which involves things like being able to pay bills, buy food and clothes and go to exotic places like...um...Orangevale :D I'm sitting in my living room right now; looking out at the beautiful day and enjoying the quiet house, just being grateful for a moment like this. Shoot, it's 9:30 and I don't even have my makeup on - I love it! lol I know this time will pass quickly and I'll get back into the rigors of a 9-5ish job, but in the meantime I think it's good to my mental and physical well being to sit back and be grateful. I am :)
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Well, I'm at week three of CrossFit. Still in the zone that I dread going every day BUT I've noticed a few things:
There is a song that's really hitting my heart today by Jason Castro (remember the dreadlock guy from American Idol?) It goes like this: This is only a mountain You don't have to find your way around it Tell it to move, it'll move Tell it to fall, it'll fall This is only a moment You don't have to let your fear control it Tell it to move, it'll move Tell it to fall, it'll fall So true! Every day when I go to work out it feels like Mt. Everest and I forgot my hiking boots. Yet, I make it through. Every day I look for work and am frustrated and discouraged, but then I'm so grateful for this time at home. Our loving heavenly father cares so much, and in these times that I'm weak both physically and emotionally, songs like the one above remind me that I am going to be ok. So many things in my life I would not have the courage to tackle if I didn't know that I'm not doing it alone. If you're reading this - be encouraged! He cares for you like that too! :)
Just had a three day weekend after getting 4 workouts in last week, I was scared! I didn't go yesterday, I have my excuse (looking for work) but I have to admit I was scared. I didn't think I could go through another day one, and after 3 days off and that was what I was expecting. I noticed something about yesterday though. I felt like crap. Not the, "Oh man I'm tired after that workout!" crap, but the "I'm depressed, I can't find a job, I don't want to do anything" crap. That's what motivated me to go today. I know that being unemployed can take me down that road and if working out is going to help me not go there, then I'm going to continue doing it!
I noticed I'm eating a lot better. Who wants to work their butt off like that then eat burgers and fries?? Well I almost wanted to eat burgers and fries. Last week after two days of working out and sweating to death I was sure I had to of dropped 10 lbs in sweat alone. Imagine my dismay when I stepped on the scale and saw I GAINED 6 lbs!!! Are you serious!!!! That was a major mind mess up. The good news is that I'm now -1 from my starting weight so things are going in the right direction. I'm sure my body was freaking out :) Last week I was so sore I couldn't move around easily. Today I am feeling it but not the same way. I think I'm making progress! |
AuthorMy name is Kat and I'm a single mom of two young adults. I have not always been overweight but after having children and going through some personal hurdles, let it get out of control. My philosophy about eating is this: Eat real food. Real eggs, butter, veggies. Eliminating processed junk as much as possible. I eat butter, not faux butter product because I believe my body can better process real food rather than chemicals. Archives
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