That statement by itself is profound. I'm old enough to say that after all these years, my mind definitely needs a little renewing. I know more than I did as a child, but at least 1/2 is wrong! Not the things like math or how to make my bed, but the things I think about myself and life in general. What I see happening is that I have to think about food and exercise all the time. Right now that feels like a pain in the butt (I have better things like world peace to think about!) but I see what it's doing. It's making me more conscience of my choices and writing over the bad tapes in my mind of what I say to myself. Things that I see through a glass dimly. God is renewing my mind about myself. It is really really hard to picture my body in shape. That's why I definitely need him to be what drives this whole thing because alone I will give up and give in because 145 lbs. feels impossible. With him, allllll things are possible!
I made a mistake last week. I had a successful weigh in, however, I stepped on the scale 2 days later and it said I had lost 3 lbs. Felt so good BUT I knew i wasn't for real. Every day since I step on the scale and sure enough, it wasn't true even though I wished it so. It wasn't a failure, I'm still on track but just disappointed I haven't made my first 10 lbs yet. Talk about beating myself up! DEFINITELY need the mind renewing and to leave the scale for 1x a week :)
Since today is the first day of my web page I thought of more things I wanted to add and say.
Here is a thought from my mom (and she doesn't even know she said it)! lol Basically it comes down to this...Stop beating yourself up! Satan wants you to fail. or in my case, stay fat. YOU WILL NOT DIE IF YOU CHEAT! I'm not giving you permission, but I know that I struggle with doing my whole life change perfectly. In the past if I cheated then the whole day/diet/life was a failure. Forget that! Yesterday, I had a glass of wine. Guess that could be construed as cheating, but you know what? I didn't go too far over my daily calorie goal and I enjoyed it. So good, mmmm....thinking about it now (btw, it's called Momentum by Illuminare and is worth a glass!). I won't beat myself up any more. My eyes are on the goal but I'm able to stop and smell the roses, or zinfandel in this case :)
I'm in to my 4th week on my journey so you missed the exciting stuff like: Chocolate cake, a suit that didn't fit, frustration with my weight loss, and my favorite - can I really do this? I am now currently of the opinion - HECK YES! WHY DIDN'T I DO THIS SOONER?! lol I'm not saying it's easy. I have been blessed to be unemployed (lol yes blessing, not a curse) and while I've been looking for work I've been changing my eating habits. Helps a whole lot not to eat breakfast and lunch out at fast food. Helps to have extra time to plan and exercise. While I'm home and doing this, it's helping me not get bummed about a job and be grateful instead. Who gets this much time to work on themselves? I didn't want to waste it. So I sit down and write out the menu for each meal for the week. I use the treadmill or take my dog, Emma, for a walk, and I concentrate on my successes. So far I have lost 10 lbs. (8 officially). I weigh in on Fridays and will update this blog then. I encourage whoever reads this to join me! My goal is to have lost 145 lbs. by the end of May, 2013. When I think of that, it encourages me. Next summer I'll be wearing cute clothes, riding roller coasters and sitting comfortably (as you can get) in airplanes.
My name is Kat and I'm a single mom of two young adults. I have not always been overweight but after having children and going through some personal hurdles, let it get out of control. My philosophy about eating is this: Eat real food. Real eggs, butter, veggies. Eliminating processed junk as much as possible. I eat butter, not faux butter product because I believe my body can better process real food rather than chemicals.