RIght? Trying the same thing expecting different results. I'm out of ideas of what I can do to make it different, at the same time giving up is to resolve myself to the remainder of my life being restricted and in pain. I just read through what I've written in the past and this pattern needs to stop. Why do I turn to food as a stress relief. Tastes good, doesn't take long for a fix, it's not drugs (but is it?).
Wow, food is my drug. I'm an addict. Fat people can be addicts and still show maintain a job and their status in society - or can they. Some job opportunities can be lost because of physical appearance or restrictions. Society status can be lost because of judgement of my outward appearance. Some people are overweight because of medical things they can't help but I'm not in that category. My weight sends a message that there is something wrong in my life even though that may not be how it's consciously processed, I think people know it somewhere deep inside. If food is a drug (in my case), then wouldn't it make sense that I could check myself into a program? Ok, a program that doesn't cost a gazillion dollars. I'm going to see if there is one. I'm back. I did a search for food rehab center which gave me a few options but then it occurred to me - COVID. lol On to the next idea. Here's the next idea: Square one - again. I can't give up trying! Maybe this time it will stick. Maybe this time I can do it. I found a video on YouTube (I will post it). It is low impact and a good place to start. I'm committing to do it 4x a week. We shall see how that goes. I'm also committing to cut out junk food. If you are struggling too, please comment below. I need all the encouragement I can get. (Trolls not allowed).
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AuthorMy name is Kat. I'm 54 and working towards a goal - to have my outside reflect my inside :) Archives
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