Sometime in January two adorable little girls showed up at my door selling cookies and I agreed to buy two boxes. I, after all, was a Girl Scout when I was younger and had really just started changing my life. Surely changing my life didn't involve refraining from this yearly tradition. Yesterday they delivered the cookies :/ I won't share what kind they were because I'm sure whoever reads this will automatically crave it and I don't wan't to subject you to that pleasurable horror. I will say this though - I did not pass this temptation. I ate 6 of them (maybe 7). Now for those familiar with the calories on these little gems, you know it's a lot of calories! You would think that GIRL scouts would come up with some low calorie treat to peddle. Maybe it's because I was a Girl Scout that I'm overweight today! Hmmm....I'm sure I could state a case for that which would undoubtedly humor me but in my heart I know it wasn't them, it's been me.
While I'm confessing my sins, I will admit that I also ate a Hershey chocolate bar. Bought it for the bon fire my daughter, Holly, was having with her friends. Turned out they got cold and left, leaving me with marshmallows and chocolate. EVILLLL!!!! There are two things that trigger my over eating, cookies and chocolate. Both in one weekend was horrid! Here is the good thing that I honestly feel today - soooo what! Yeah, I blew it. That was yesterday. Today is a new day and I will not give up my advances without a fight so I'm up early, making tea, dishwasher going, eating a healthy breakfast and going to get my walk in. I'm not going to lie, getting to this place is a struggle and the weight isn't falling off like the biggest loser BUT I feel good about me. My true struggle in weight loss isn't necessarily what I put in my mouth, it's what I think in my head. Do I believe I can overcome bad eating habits? Do I think I can have the body that is fit and healthy? Do I treat myself like I'm worth paying attention to? I couldn't say this before, but today I can for sure say yes to them all. God has been doing such a healing work in my life for the past 3 years. This has been just one more piece of our relationship that he has shown me we can easily do together. Easily together, yes, but still painful at times as all true life changes are. I'm finding that it is less painful the more I commit to the process instead of struggling against it.
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AuthorMy name is Kat and I'm a single mom of two young adults. I have not always been overweight but after having children and going through some personal hurdles, let it get out of control. My philosophy about eating is this: Eat real food. Real eggs, butter, veggies. Eliminating processed junk as much as possible. I eat butter, not faux butter product because I believe my body can better process real food rather than chemicals. Archives
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